Why Do The Pills Work

Always was a fearful kid
Was always on my mother’s hip
She never had to question if I’d leave
Who I am she couldn’t fix
‘Cause I’m just a different kind of sick
And of all the kids God gave her me
I’d wake up while they would dream
I’m in cold sweat but I can’t scream

And I can white knuckle all the way through this
I might be broken but I’ll say it’s just bruises
I’m in the fire but I don’t gotta burn
‘Cause one a day will bring me back to the Earth
I don’t need pity for the cards I was dealt
You say it’s normal like you think it’ll help
And I’m not saying people don’t have it worse
But if there’s nothing wrong with me
Then why do the pills work

One time I tried to cut it off
Thought if I could last then I was strong
But I only started panicking again
It wasn’t long until I knew
That the diagnosis it was true
I don’t wanna break so I’m learning how to bend
I’m not weak for finding peace
Don’t you think I deserve sleep

And I can white knuckle all the way through this
I might be broken but I’ll say it’s just bruises
I’m in the fire but I don’t gotta burn
‘Cause one a day will bring me back to the Earth
I don’t need pity for the cards I was dealt
You say it’s normal like you think it’ll help
And I’m not saying people don’t have it worse
But if there’s nothing wrong with me
Then why do the pills work
Oh why do the pills work

It’s clinical and medical
Out of control and it gets old
And God I hate it
It’s in my mind it’s all the time
It’s hard to climb it’s my design
I can’t fake it
It’s in the air it’s everywhere
And it’s not fair and yeah I’m scared
But I’m not breaking
I’m strong enough to open up
I don’t need love what’s done is done
And I can’t take it

And I can white knuckle all the way through this
It’s not a life that somebody just chooses
I’m in the fire but I don’t gotta burn
‘Cause one a day will bring me back to the Earth
I don’t need pity for the cards I was dealt
You say it’s normal like you think it’ll help
And I’m not saying people don’t have it worse
But if there’s nothing wrong with me
Then why do the pills work