Ruminating

I’m giving up on getting sleep tonight, It’s 4am and I’m in fight or flight, Ruminating, Ruminating, Ruminating, Ruminating, And I can’t shake the image of her naked, On top of you, and I’m disassociated, Ruminating, Ruminating, Ruminating, Ruminating, And I’m not hateful but you make me hate her, She gets to sleep next to my medicator, You’re mine mine mine mine, You’re mine mine mine mine, You’re mine mine mine mine, You’re mine mine mine, And now I’m Ruminating, Ruminating, Now I’m in my head, Ruminating, Ruminating, All the things you said, Why can’t you wait for me to come home? This conversation’s too big for a phone call. Ruminating, Ruminating, I’ve been up all night, Did you kiss her on the lips, and look into her eyes? Did you have fun? Now that it’s done, Baby won’t you tell me that I’m still your number one, ‘Cause you’re my number one. I told you all of this has been, too brutal, You told me that you felt the same, it’s mutual, And then you came out with this line, so crucial, Yeah, “If it has to happen, baby do you want to know? If it has to happen, baby do you want to know? If it has to happen, baby do you want to know?” I don't know, I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t know, But what a line, line, line, What a fucking line, line, line, What a fucking line, line, line, What a fucking line, line, line, What a fucking line, line, line, What a fucking line, What a fucking line, Ruminating, Ruminating, Now I’m in my head, Ruminating, Ruminating, All the things you said, Why can’t you wait for me to come home, This conversation’s too big for a phone call. Ruminating, Ruminating, I’ve been up all night, Did you kiss her on the lips, and look into her eyes? Did you have fun? Now that it’s done, Baby will you tell me that I’m still your number one? Cause you’re my number one. Ruminating, Ruminating, Now I’m in my head, Ruminating, Ruminating, All the things you said, Why can’t you wait, for me to come home? This conversation’s too big for a phone call. Ruminating, Ruminating, I’ve been up all night, Did you kiss her on the lips, and look into her eyes? Did you have fun? Now that it's done, Baby will you tell me I’m still your number one?